Home vs the News

I take part in very different experiences depending on how much news I allow into my head. Again and again through this pandemic, I find a great contrast in our personal experiences compared to the picture painted by other voices. I don’t deny the real suffering going on, but I don’t have to open the door and invite it in all the time. I don’t think our minds are equipped to handle the amount of information in the constant news cycle.

We definitely don’t go out as much. We are blessed with pretty good internet and a home with lots of space. Richard still works from home in the basement office. I am mentally preparing for remote learning for Mark as case numbers rise. The pandemic continues to push us home, and I am doing what I can to make it pleasant. Without question, we are profoundly blessed.

Rest in Peace, little hamster.

Is it too late for a summary post of the things I read in 2021?

2021 was a weird year, wasn’t it? For me, I was dealing with grief, preparing to send Tim away, and stretching a lot in church work. I was sick more than I wanted to be. It seems I read either fluff or lead. I read consistently and intentionally, which I learned was better for me than trying to read a certain number of books. I have highlighted the books that I think will stay with me the longest.

  • Death Comes for the Archbishop by Willa Cather (I loved it in a deeply personal way.)
  • The Great Silence: Britain from the Shadow of the First World War to the Dawn of the Jazz Age by Juliet Nicholson (I liked the variety of accounts the author found from the time. It opened my mind to the idea of collective national grief.)
  • Recollections of my Nonexistence by Rebecca Solnit (I really like the things she shares about writing and influence and women. I also appreciate her earnestness, even if I can’t embrace all she says.)
  • Gideon’s TrumpetHow one man, and poor prisoner, took his case to the Supreme Court — and changed the law of the United States, by Anthony Lewis (Just excellent)
  • The Book of Mormon, Another Testament of Jesus Christ (focus: the ministering of angels; the Lord’s promises to the House of Israel)
  • Wild Pork and Watercress by Barry Crump (This is the book from which the movie, Hunt for the Wilderpeople is based. It was fun.)
  • A Room with a View by E.M. Forster (Just an escape, quick and easy to read.)
  • My Antonia by Willa Cather (I liked the chapters about childhood best. There are stories while they lived on the plains that are unforgettable.)
  • Dusk, Night, Dawn: on Revival and Courage by Anne Lamott (She shows me how memoir can help someone with a very different life feel less alone.)
  • Theodore Rex by Edmund Morris (This was difficult for me to finish because it was focused more on policy than Roosevelt’s sparkly personality.)
  • Guilty Admissions: The Bribes, Favors, and Phonies Behind the College Admissions Scandal by Nicole LaPorte (The author helps explain how this could happen, from cultural expectations, wealth and privilege, and helicopter parenting, to the lack of oversight in college admissions and the greed of Rick Singer and elite schools. I felt the fascination-repulsion reflex throughout.)
  • Freely and Lightly by Emily Lex (I absolutely loved this.)
  • A New Song by Jan Karon (The fifth novel in the Mitford series)
  • Recipes for a Sacred Life: true stories and a few miracles by Rivvy Neshama (I loved the short vignettes of sweet moments in life. Lots of different countries and traditions represented here.)
  • Iron Rose by Lorie H. Nicholes (An out of print page-turner.)
  • Angels Round About by Lorie H Nicholes (Not as good as the previous book I read by this author.)
  • I am Malala by Malala Yousefzai and Christina Lamb (I loved it.)
  • A Rose in War part 1: Barbed Wire by Lorie H. Nicholes
  • A Rose in War part 2: Rebirth of Hope by Lorie H Nicholes
  • O Pioneers! by Willa Cather (I wish I had been warned how sad this story is. I really like the writing.)
  • Miss Buncle’s Book by D. E. Stevenson (fun)
  • Miss Buncle Married by D. E. Stevenson
  • The Two Mrs. Abbotts by D. E. Stevenson
  • Freely and Lightly by Emily Lex (second reading)
  • One of Ours by Willa Cather (W.C. is my author of the year. This book wasn’t rosebuds and butterflies but it felt more real than most things in books.)
  • Simple Justicethe History of Brown v. Board of Education and Black America’s Struggle for Equality by Richard Kluger (This changed my thinking more than any book I have read this year, and maybe many years. The author chose to focus not just on the legal questions involved in school segregation, but the history and culture of our nation and the stories of the individuals involved. Some people were so inspiring. Some things were so revolting. It was a difficult book and a difficult topic, and I needed this education. The author forgot the people in his telling of the Supreme Court decision at the end, and I was left to wonder what happened to all those attorneys from the NAACP and the specific people they represented in their cases that were bundled and presented before the Supreme Court. I would like to read their biographies.)
  • The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde  (Now it’s time to watch the 2002 film starring Colin Firth, Rupert Everett, Judy Dench, and Reese Witherspoon.)
  • A Common Life: The Wedding Story by Jan Karon (This book is like a comfy robe and slippers. Mitford book #6)
  • An Ideal Husband by Oscar Wilde (Now it’s time to watch the 1999 film adaptation starring Rupert Everett, Cate Blanchett, Jeremy North, and Minnie Driver.)
  • In This Mountain by Jan Karon (Mitford #7)
  • Shepherds Abiding by Jan Karon (Mitford #8, I really love this one. It’s a Christmas story.)
  • Light from Heaven by Jan Karon (This inspires me to be a better minister. Mitford #9)
  • The Book of Mormon: Another Testament of Jesus Christ (I studied very slowly and deeply this time, looking for answers in several personal dilemmas. It works.)
  • The Book Woman of Troublesome Creek by Kim Michele Richardson (It was fine. A quick read.)
  • Persuasion by Jane Austen
  • Home to Holly Springs by Jan Karon (This was a heavier read than the usual Mitford fare by this author.)
  • Seekers Wanted: The Skills You Need for the Faith You Want by Anthony Sweat (This was really good, especially for a young adult audience, but the chapter on sustaining the prophet is the best I have read anywhere on the topic.)
  • In the Company of Others by Jan Karon
  • Somewhere Safe With Someone Good by Jan Karon
  • Come Rain or Come Shine by Jan Karon
  • To Be Where You Are by Jan Karon
  • The Book of Mormon, Another Testament of Jesus Christ
  • The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion (This is about grief, and her writing is beautiful.)

Unique times call for incredible women

This is my presidency, my Covid era, incredible stake Primary presidency. We have been masked, filmed, Zoomed and distanced for most of the time we have served. We have adapted again and again, visited Primary leaders on porches and phones, held meetings outdoors and distanced in chapels. We have facilitated baptisms one by one, keeping families safe. Tonight I decided to take a picture after our masked meeting so I can remember this time, and also how we look behind those masks.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!

I put photos of my 2021 dolls in my little album this week. I am learning new skill in creating personalities in the features. Which doll face or mood matches your hopes for 2022? “Resolute,” as President Nelson said to be? Hopeful and curious? Calm and full of faith? Or maybe cautiously optimistic?

I think I relate to the expression on the blue haired doll. I feel ambivalent about the New Year, blank about the coming months, but maybe a little relieved 2021 is a closed book. I can resolve to keep an open mind to what is ahead and find joy in it, but I would really welcome an easier road for a little while. I feel quieted by the things I need to fix in my life, but I know to whom I can go for help, and I have a plan.

Traveler

Tim’s two mission assignments
Mission home in Vancouver 12/29/21

I have been uneasy this week, knowing Tim was in transit in a challenging time, but I have tried not to indulge in my feelings. Without wallowing in my fears, I have been gentle with myself and allowed for comfort, quiet, reading, journaling, and some rest. Tim’s mission is not about me. My prayers have evolved from merely, “Please protect and guide him,” to, “Thy will be done,” (not said in resignation but as an affirmation) and, “Please let my son be a blessing to someone today.” The more I make this about God’s will and and helping others, and focus less on my feelings, the more healthy I become in my heart.

Gifts from my children

We all enjoy giving and receiving presents. But there is a difference between presents and gifts. True gifts may be part of ourselves– giving of the heart and mind– and therefore more enduring and of far greater worth than presents bought at the store.

James E. Faust
I played In the Bleak Midwinter in church. This is a screenshot from the YouTube broadcast.
Here you can kind of see Daniel, whose accompaniment was vital and beautiful.

I have been touched by many gifts this Christmas. Paige made drawings of Daniel and Tim at age three to complete my little collection of drawings of our children. Daniel may not consider this as part of his already generous gift and precious letter to me, but his piano accompaniment of the piece I played in church was a beautiful gift. Tim hand wrote long letters to each of us and made sure I had a gift from him under the tree, even though he wasn’t with us this year. Mark gave me a CD of music that he doesn’t enjoy himself, and was my companion for so many errands for Christmas giving. His service and company was so important to me this year.

It isn’t always possible to do something meaningful, but I know when I give “of my heart and mind,” the Spirit of Christmas fills my soul.

Today Paige and Michael celebrate their anniversary. Their presence in our lives is a gift and blessing.

photo by Rachel Angela Photography

Merry merry

There are things we do to mark the days leading up to Christmas. We have a few Advent calendars, and the little house Advent on my windowsill is one of my favorite new things. There are concerts and the annual trip to Temple Square. My hands have handled many Christmas cards and neighbor gifts, given and received. Most years, I embroider a doll or two for people who are grieving. I made some extras this year since 2021 has been rough for so many people. Today, the husband of someone I gave a doll to this week stopped me and thanked me for the comfort it gave to him. Who knew?!

I received a beautiful gift basket that I wouldn’t let my family open for days because I thought it was so pretty. A week went by, and I finally got around to unpacking the gift. In the bottom of the box, beneath some paper and wrapping was a silver ring with a “T.” I knew this was not intended for me, and tried to find the owner. I was successful, and the woman quickly came over to get her ring that she lost while assembling the box. The ring had the initial of her son who is serving a mission, and she prayed that she would find it. Another tender mercy for a missionary mom.

I might need a “T” ring myself.

My hands have been busy with other things, and today I am only writing as long as I have to wait for Mark to come out of a meeting. Oh, here he is. Merry merry Christmas, my friends.

Scripture Advent Calendar 2021

My go-to gift for for my friends and family the last several years has been a scripture advent calendar. Creating a calendar about Jesus Christ is such a good exercise! I love seeing the united voices of all scripture rally around Him.

Almost every day, I get a text from one or two people commenting on the scriptures I shared. What good company! I love hearing from people. Yesterday, a friend texted me that she loved the scripture about Jesus Christ as the Good Shepherd because it was so poetic.

As a shepherd seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day.

Ezekiel 34:12, KJV

I know the reason this advent calendar is especially popular this year is because of its topic, Jesus Christ. I know when we speak His name in reverence and seek to know Him, our lives are filled with the Spirit. This is the Christmas feeling, the Spirit of God.