{"id":28110,"date":"2024-08-02T10:06:12","date_gmt":"2024-08-02T16:06:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/?p=28110"},"modified":"2024-08-04T09:55:50","modified_gmt":"2024-08-04T15:55:50","slug":"rest","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/2024\/08\/rest\/","title":{"rendered":"Rest"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/08\/1000005792.png\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"454\" height=\"440\" src=\"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/08\/1000005792.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-28113\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/08\/1000005792.png 454w, http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/08\/1000005792-300x291.png 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 454px) 100vw, 454px\" \/><\/a><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">With Mark gone about 3 days a week, I find that my days are empty, just a preview of how it will be when he leaves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I am not looking for advice or sympathy. In fact, if someone offers it, I bristle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">While expected, this phase has surprised me with its hollowness. My time with my children at home is ending and I don&#8217;t feel drawn to do anything. All those things I said I would do later have simply stopped calling. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I feel weary, but more aware and more wise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">My days feel hollow, but personally, I am intact.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I just want to be completely still all of the time. I could take time to really develop this thought, but that would interrupt the stillness that I crave. Here is a simple explanation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">In music and in life, there are necessary rests, pauses, and changes in theme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The best way I can express it is that I have come to a point of arrival in my song that requires a pause. A rest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Soon, I will pick up a new theme or begin a new movement. But now, during this scorching summer, I seek rest.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>With Mark gone about 3 days a week, I find that my days are empty, just a preview of how it will be when he leaves. I am not looking for advice or sympathy. In fact, if someone offers it, I bristle. While expected, this phase has surprised me with its hollowness. My time with &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/2024\/08\/rest\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Rest<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28110","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life-according-to-angela","category-motherhood"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28110","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=28110"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28110\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":28133,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28110\/revisions\/28133"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=28110"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=28110"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=28110"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}