{"id":21391,"date":"2021-11-12T11:43:39","date_gmt":"2021-11-12T17:43:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/?p=21391"},"modified":"2021-11-12T12:03:38","modified_gmt":"2021-11-12T18:03:38","slug":"past-present-future","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/2021\/11\/past-present-future\/","title":{"rendered":"Past, Present, Future"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/11\/10122021102357.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"640\" height=\"441\" src=\"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/11\/10122021102357.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-21392\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/11\/10122021102357.jpg 640w, http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/11\/10122021102357-300x207.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 640px) 100vw, 640px\" \/><\/a><figcaption>Tiny art by Paige for my miniature museum, featuring Tim as a missionary in Micronesia.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Being the planner that I am, I get lost in future scenarios really easily. I love to sit down with my day planner and organize everything. Sometimes I have to limit how long I allow myself to live in the future because hello, there are people here, right now, that could use some attention.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I also have a sentimental side that collects images and artifacts from every event in our lives. I find that when I am most stressed, it is my memories that will ground me. Favorite escape memories for me often involve scenes from my childhood: a still, black, icy night walking home from a tithing settlement with my family; feeling static shocks at my great-grandmother&#8217;s house from her shag carpet while eating her pink wintergreen lozenges; the leathery, then papery crunch of autumn leaves under my feet as I walked home from elementary school on a golden afternoon. The past is a friend when I am a bag of nerves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The present is probably the least easy place for me to inhabit. But this week that is where I have tried to live. We spent time with Tim and Mark last Friday, a last hurrah together before the mission. I didn&#8217;t take pictures, just mental ones. I have tried to be open to what the last week of regular life has brought to us. I watched Tim and Elder Josh Marz together in our front yard, talking and smiling on Josh&#8217;s last P-day before flying to his mission. I watched some shows with Mark who has a cold. I walked around a store and explored the Christmas aisles instead of just my usual in-and-out beeline to the things on my list.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">We gather tomorrow for an outdoor goodbye party for Tim. On Sunday, he will speak in church and be set apart as a missionary. All the planning and work makes the present more enjoyable. My word of the month is SHINE. We&#8217;re ready.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Being the planner that I am, I get lost in future scenarios really easily. I love to sit down with my day planner and organize everything. Sometimes I have to limit how long I allow myself to live in the future because hello, there are people here, right now, that could use some attention. I &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/2021\/11\/past-present-future\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Past, Present, Future<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,16,20,34,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21391","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-adventurous-kids","category-art","category-life-according-to-angela","category-missionary","category-motherhood"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21391","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21391"}],"version-history":[{"count":15,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21391\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":21409,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21391\/revisions\/21409"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21391"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21391"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.angelaross.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21391"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}